God,
tonight
i really feel I WANNA KILL HIM, my father
if he don't go, may be i will
i can't hold on this feeling anymore
I CAN NOT AND I DON'T WANT to have a fuckin' jerk father like him,
NO!
why?
I just keep asking that
in envy
why i don't have a supported, fascinating fam like another
why it happen to me?
Am I as strong as You think?
Cant i go on, move on, solve this problem?
Can't I??
Can I?
What should I do God?
May be im just an arrogant man who get my punishment
im not thinking about that
but i think about 'what next?'
what's gonna happen to me?
I can't hoping that dummy2 spoil parents, especially he
can give me a life
can fulfill my fam need
what should I do to get enough money?
To pay the bills, owe
Cause for me, He's dead
i don't n cant depend on anyone but myself
but how?
Show me the way, please
God
before im being crazy
or before i really kill him
or before i cant think rightly and decide to kill myself
