Feeling?! IDK

You don't know
You will never know about what i feel inside
What kind of hurt i feel
You don't know
what i feel right know
How much tears had fallen down
You don't know
What happened to me
How hard
I can bear it anymore
not long
I dont know
How to keep myself in line
When my brain was going to explode
When i couldn't control my heart again
When i thought like world is against me
When i thought there's no fairness in this world
There's nothing i have
I don't know how to solve all of my problems
Where's the way out?

SHE by Cho Kyuhyun

She
May be the face i can't forget
A trace of pleasure or regret
May be my treasure or the price
i have to pay
She may be the song that
summer sings
May be the chill that autumn
brings
May be a hundred different
things
Within the measure of a day.

She
May be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a heaven
or a hell
She may be the mirror of my
dreams
A smile reflected in a stream
She may not be what she may
seem
Inside her shell

She who always seems so happy
in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private
and so proud
No one's allowed to see them
when they cry
She may be the love that cannot
hope to last
May come to me from shadows
of the past
That i'll remember till the day i
die

She
May be the reason i survive
The why and wherefore i'm alive
The one i'll care for through the
rough and ready years
Me i'll take her laughter and her
tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes i've got to
be
The meaning of my life is she

source:someone's blog

what??

if tears can be erased
why i can't stop crying,
if everything is right
why i never felt happy
if there's someone who cares
why i always feel lonely
if a family should have been the place to share, to protect
why i never felt it
i never thought that i have a 'real' family
yeah, not only family
i always feel that everything is fake for me
nothing real
im alone
and i will always feel it

if there's savior,
i know YOU will send that for me
no matter what
i know that YOU never leave me although else does

if the tears can be erased
im sure
it can
someday

my secret crush

when i met you,
i dont feel anything at first
im here and there you
but day by day
you make a special moment which make me smile
that's something that get my attention

for three years we are together,
now i always thinking about you,
always smiling when remember about you
i wonder about what i feel then i know that i feel something different to you
something that i didnt feel to another man

*you're my secret crush
who can make my day wonderful everytime i see your smile
you're the one who can get my attention and my feeling
eventhough may be you dont know
you...
My secret crush

time passed by,
your magic is hypnotizing me,
i cant take my eyes off you
but why,
why cant you see what i feel?
*

may be many people say about monkey love
but you always be my secret crush :)

GALAU

i decide to giving up about you 'cause i don't get anything about your feeling
im wondering,
asking,
cant you see that?
Everytime we get closer, i give you a sign, clue about what i feel
but i dont see anything in yourself
everything become blur not clearer
im confused about it
so, i think it's better to try to forget you eventhough im still consider it
hope the best for us, just it i can say