Meditation Session with TGSI on 25/7/2020

I wrote this almost a year ago and i still find myself struggling to commit to this habit. so here is a reminder to myself :

Last year, on July 25th, I joint the Meditation Class Session from The Golden Space Indonesia (TGSI) from 10am to 6pm. It was a non-stop session and it was super relaxing.

It was my 2^nd time join Mr. Bagia’s session and I always feel healing and more calm after joining the session. The other classes were so fun and amazing as well. I love all sessions.

After joining the session, I feel better. My emotion and feeling feel great. I think I need to practice meditation regularly for better impact.

Meditation is a good habit to talk with ourself. To become mindful and to stay present. I know that sometimes, I can’t help to feel worried about the future or feel sad about what happened in the past. And by doing this kind of exercice, I feel better and relieved.

I’m a very reactive person, but I learn to be more patient. I learn that by breathing in and out, it gives me time to think clearly. No need to rush things because we’re imperfect and it’s okay.

Emotion or energy in motion is a new concept that I realize from this session. Our emotion is eternal, so when we feel something is real. We need to acknowledge and accept the feeling. It will stay as it is and we can’t change it. But, Energy can be transferred or transformed. Our negative thoughts and emotions are bad for our body, mind and soul. So, in order to have healthy self, we need to transformed this negatives energy. Otherwise, we’ll transfer it to our surroundings in a form of anger, complaints, or that toxic words/thoughts. That’s why it’s important to identify our emotion and deal with it in healthy way.

I ain’t perfect myself. I’m still trying to find the way to calm myself, especially in stormy days or when I have to deal with difficult situations. And I find that this meditation might help me to transform myself. To become a better person. To be a better human being. My goal in life now is to have meaningful, purposeful and grateful life. And I think this habit can help me to reach the goal.

I’m not good at committing to things, but I hope, I can do this habit regularly and have the good vibes from it. Wish me luck!  

Cintai Nasibmu (Sebuah Pengenalan Prinsip Filosofi Teras)

Hari ini pertama kalinya aku mendengarkan Podcast dari Greatmind di suatu platform. Greatmind adalah suatu Podcaster yang memberikan insight terkait inspirasi, advokasi, dan aspirasi dari para pembicara yang didatangkan. Podcast ini saya dengar dari platform Spotify.  

Di Podcast pertamanya, Greatmind membicarakan tentang buku Filosofi Teras yang dibawakan oleh  penulis buku tersebut yang bernama Henry Manampiring. Melalui siaran ini, aku pun baru menyadari bahwa Filosofi Teras adalah suatu landasan pemikiran yang didasarkan dari ajaran Stoisisme.

Stoisisme sendiri merupakan pandangan yang berlandaskan pada ajaran bahwa “Kebahagiaan itu berasal dari dalam diri. Kau hanya memiliki kontrol penuh atas dirimu, TIDAK pada hal lainnya.”

Hal - hal yang bisa kau kontrol, misalnya : pikiranmu, perkataanmu, dan tindakanmu. Hal lainnya merupakan sesuatu yang tidak dapat kau kontrol dan sebaiknya tidak kau dasarkan kebahagiaanmu pada hal tersebut.

Selain itu, untuk hal - hal yang tidak bisa kau kontrol, terimalah. Terima emosi yang kau miliki dan jalani sebaik yang kau bisa. Mencoba melawan perasaan yang ada atau mencoba mengubah keadaan yang ada dapat membuat keadaanmu semakin buruk.

Tentu saja kau berharap keadaan bisa menjadi lebih baik, dan hal tersebut tidak salah. Kau bisa memulainya dari dirimu. Cobalah temukan akar dari emosi atau perasaan yang ingin kau ubah dan cari solusi akan hal tersebut. Niscaya, kau akan menemukan jalan yang terang untuk mencapai tujuanmu.

The Science of Well-Being

                                      

I’m currently learning and attending course about “The Science of well-being”, hosted by Dr. Laurie Santos. I learn it from Coursera and I found this platform attractive and Coursera give great free courses until this May, in case you’re interested or need activities to do during this sty at home period.

So, it’s my second week to attend the online course.

At the first week, we learnt and took time to measure our own score of happiness through some Quizzes. I tried all the tests and found out that I had a pretty not good grades (lol). We’re going to re-take the quiz at the end of the course and let’s so if there is any changes in that.

At week two, Dr. Santos gave lecture about how things are not actually make us happy. It based on the researches that have been conducted since long time ago. Basicly, good grades, good job, good relationship, good-looking appearance or losing weight don’t really influence our happiness.

Some factors that are found to influence happiness are Genetic (50%), Life Circumstances (10%), and Action/Thoughts (40%).

We can’t change or really do anything to the genetic or life circumstances, so you’d better focus on your action/thoughts. But many people seeks happiness at the wrong direction, so it’s even harder to attain that goal.

PERMA Quiz Result

Example of the Quiz

We can build happiness through simple habits. But we need to do it CONSISTENTLY. And the simple habits that are recommended from this session are Savouring and Gratitude. Savouring means being fully present to what we are doing and genuinely enjoy it. Give yourself time to appreciate the books that you’re reading or the activity that you’re doing. And it’s stated that there are some techniques to enhance this savouring moments such as sharing the experience with another person, thinking about how lucky you are to enjoy such an amazing moment, keeping a souvenir/photo of the moment and it’s highly recommended to spare 5-10 minutes of your time every night to write a gratitude journal and write down 5 things that make you become grateful that day.

Besides savouring, gratitude is a habit that must be developed. Gratitude is positive emotional state  in which someone appreciates and recognizes what they have in life. This habit is important to do as if oneself doesn’t feel grateful, they will keep on wanting for more and can’t be happy even though they already have more than what they need. In this course, there is one study where people with different salary were studied about their financial situation and if they feel that their salary is enough for living. Based on that research, it turns out that they don’t feel enough and want more salary, even though one of them has earned more than what the average person usually earn. 

This is why gratitude is important in order to reach happiness.

As I mentioned above, I just attended week two for the courses, so I will end the story here and may be I’ll come back and tell more stories later :)

If you’re interested to take the courses, here is the link.

How’s your stay at home moment guys? I hope we can get through this tough moment and this too shall pass.

Stay happy, healthy and maintain yourself! See ya the other time :)  

Good Soul

After many thoughtful thought,

Many videos that I watched,

I come to a realization that how people behave is based on how they were raised

We all have different backgrounds,

Different ways how we are treated by our family when we were a child

And most of the time, we’re influenced by this

People always have something deep inside their mind and heart because of their upbringing.

It could be the rooted belief of family thing,

The desire to have this family thing because they see happiness at their home

Or the scary thought of having one because they experienced the bad side of broken family.

Everyone has different story that we might not know.

They hide their feelings very well.

They try to look good in front of other, even though they feel really broken and desperate inside

It’s not easy to read someone’s history.

Dear myself,

I know you did many wrongs to other people in the past,

But you still have chances to correct your behaviour,

If you are given any chances to do good and be kind,

Please try to do that.

I know,

It’s not easy for you to open up to people

To trust them

But at least,

Give it a try please,

To do good and to be good.

It could be a good thing for your soul.

Quote from Sophia Bush (taken from Google)

Please try to believe,

As you have experienced it,

There are still many good souls here in this world,

So please,

Try to be part of that.

I know you can. 

Massimo Express Yogyakarta

Hello guys, how's you're day?
I hope everything is good and may you all have a good journey.

So, after pretty long time,
i wanna tell you  my foodie story

It's an Italian restaurant and gelateria in Yogyakarta.
The name is
"MASSIMO EXPRESS YOGYAKARTA"
This resto located on Jl. Suryodiningratan No.10 | Suryodiningratan, Mantrijeron, Yogyakarta 55141, Indonesia.

 This place will suit those who love Italian speciality and it'd be better if you go here with lots of friends or family because the food portion is too much for a person. 

So, this place has so much variety of menus. Here they are : 

 

  

 

 

When i got here, i ordered the 'Recchitelle alla Massimo". I thought because it has 'Massimo name on it, so i hink it may be a signature dish of this place. And when it came, i got surprised because the portion was so big. 

This is the picture of the dish : 

 

It tasted pretty delicious and the tomato sauce was very tasty. It had pretty much olive (the real olive in it). Personally, i love creamy things more than this, so for me i rate it 3.5 out of 5 stars. 

I also got the free appetizer 

The name of this dish is Pittole. 
It was crunchy and tasted good in my opinion. 

And what i love the most from Italian restaurant is definitely their COFFEE. The price is cheap compared to the Coffee shop and It tasted so damn good (as always). 

When i got here, i ordered the White Flat Coffee 

I gave 4 out of 5 stars for this. 

After the food and beverages, let's talk about the place. 
The decor and the ambiance of this place is very cozy. 

I enjoyed spent time here. I stayed here for about two hours because it was so cozy and calm. The service is pretty nice but not very excellent in my opinion.

So, i recommend you to visit this place if you love Italian food or if you're simply curious to know/taste it. 

Have a good time!

Story - Win a Giveaway from Kak Affi Assegaf

Hello guys!
How's your day?

I hope you all have a super great day wherever you are.

So, after a long long while, i wanna share you the box that i got from Affi Assegaf, one of my fave beauty guru.

Before i tell you the whole story, i'd like to say thank you to Kak Affi to give me these stuffs FOR FREE. I don't even need to pay for shipping.

Without any further do, this is the story about the giveaway.

I got this after been participated in a survey in Instagram. I filled out the questioner and i was announced to be one of the winner for Non-Sensitive Skin Type Person (yeay!)

And then, after a couple of days, the package arrived. (W.O.W. I was so excited). I received a pretty box with these stuffs inside.

Inside the box

There was 4 beauty items in the box. And they are from a pretty well-known brand, so i was a bit surprised (and SUPER HAPPY of course!).

These are the products that i got : 

1. Cherry Blossom Shimmering Lotion from L'Occitane

2. Cherry Blossom Shower Gel from L'Occitane

3. Lipstick (201 Japanese Blossom) series from The Body Shop

4. Instant Glow Eyeshadow Palette from Catrice Cosmetics

Lipstick - Front side

Lipstick - Back side

I can say that the lesson-learned from this giveaway thing is when an opportunity comes, grab it. At least, give it a try first. You will never get the result unless you have tried. Even if you fail, you'll learn something from that. (FYI : I've been participated in so many giveaways and sometimes i got a good result, sometimes i don't). 

This principle can be applied to all sectors in life, because we'll never know what about to happen in life. We can't always get what we want, but we can always learn from it. That's why we call it 'experience'. 

Regarding the swatch/the review of the products here, i might post about it on my social media or here. I can't promise you anything yet. But i'm so grateful for this. 

Keep trying and you'll get somewhere at the right timing. 

See ya next time. 

Stay healthy and maintain your beauty! 

Beukenhof Restaurant

Beukenhof Restaurant is a European style restaurant that's located in Ullen Sentalu Museum.
After you finish your visit to the Museum, you might be hungry and interested to visit the resto or the art shop/boutique. This time, i visited the Restaurant.

The Outdoor View

There are lots of food choices and the price is pretty pricey. but i think it would be a rare occasion to do this kind of visit, so i think you must try something when you're here.

So, this resto has a vintage style and the ambiance of the place was pretty cozy. There's in  and outdoor space available, i chose the indoor room.

Indoor View 1

Indoor View 2

Indoor View 3

I ordered the Zenroro coffee (Cappuccino with cinnamon) and Irish Fish&Chips. I have to say that i like the original cappuccino (without cinnamon) better. As for the food, i think it had a great taste.

Zenroro Coffe 2

Zenroro Coffee 1

Irish Fish and Chips

Irish Fish and Chips 2

The service was good and pretty fast. At that time, there was only 3 customers. I'd like to give the other food another try :D

Cinta mencipta Dunia

“Dunia tercipta karena cinta”

Begitulah ucap Pak Kemal, ketua Asosiasi Pelajar Prancis Indonesia (APPI) yang saya temui Sabtu, 19 Maret 2016 pada acara Jejaring Bursa Kerja perusahaan -perusahaan Prancis di Indonesia  yang diselenggarakan di Kementrian Pendidikan dan Kebudayaan  Republik Indonesia  di daerah Senayan.

Kesan saya ketika bertemu dengan Beliau, menurut saya Beliau adalah orang yang sangat prinsipil dan filosofis. Beliau menjelaskan kepada kami (saya dan beberapa teman yang mendengarkan ‘curhatan kehidupan’ dari Beliau selama beberapa saat) tentang prinsip -prinsip yang  harus dimiliki oleh seseorang (khususnya pencari kerja seperti kami). Beliau mengatakan bahwa salam dunia kerja, berlaku sebuah prinsip yang seperti dalam dunia perdagangan, yakni prinsip jual dan beli. 

Prinsip jual, yakni kami selaku pencari pekerjaan mencoba ‘menjual’  ilmu - ilmu yang telah dipelajari selama di bangku perkuliahan untuk mendapatkan  pekerjaan yang baik, sedangkan perusahaan - perusahaan  itu merupakan pembeli yang  akan membeli kemampuan kami. Tetapi, dalam bursa kerja seperti ini, terlebih lagi pada masa krisis dan sulit, ditambah persaingan yang semakin ketat, tentunya akan ada berbagai macam produk yang akan ditawarkan oleh penjual untuk menarik sang pembeli. Dan apakah keahlian kami dalam bidang perkuliahan saja akan cukup untuk bisa menarik pembeli?? Jawabannya BELUM TENTU, sebab seperti yang tadi telah dikemukakan di paragrah sebelumnya, ada berbagai banyak penjual  yang menjajakan produk sejenis dan pembeli memiliki hak untuk memilih  produk mana yang mereka inginkan, bukan?  

Sehingga pada saat ini. IPK atau prestasi yang baik saja tidak cukup untuk membuat seseorang bisamemperoleh pekerjaan yang baik. Networking menjadi suatu hal yang sangat penting di masa sekarang ini, begitulah kira-kira yang disampaikan oleh Bapak Kemal pada saat itu.

Sejujurnya, setelah mendengar pesan dan nasihat dari Beliau, saya jadi lebih menyadari pentingnya memiliki banyak kawan dan kenalan di berbagai bidang untuk memperoleh kesempatan yang lebih baik, beragam, dan luas. Karena dunia pekerjaan tidaklah harus selalu terkait dengan bidang yang dipilih semasa kuliah. 

Cogito Ergo Sum.

Je pense donc je suis.

Pikiranmulah yang membentuk dirimu.

Ketika kau berfikir positif, maka hal-hal baik niscaya akan datang.

Begitupun sebaliknya.

Seperti kalimat yang dikatakan dalam suatu quote.

“A negative mind will never give you a positive life.”

Ni Putu eka s.

KKL 1 (Séjour Linguistique)

salut,
ma chère Nikki. Ça va?
Ça fait loongtemps que je ne t'écris pas.
Désolée :(
je suis rentrée chez moi de Makassar il y a quelques jour
Je suis vraiment heureuse d'avoir fait le séjour linguistique (KKL) à Makassar
C'est une expérience inoubliable
D'abord, c'est la première fois que je suis partie en avion quand je suis consciente ( comme j'ai pris l'avion lorsque j'étais trop petite que je ne me rappele plus)
Et puis c'est la première fois que j'ai visité Makassar
Ensuite j'y suis allée avec mes amis. C'était super!!!
On y a passé 3 jours.
C'était du 22 avril au 25 avril
Même si cela dure court, mais je ne l'oublierai jamais ce voyage.
Je suis allée aux endroits magnifiques que je n'ai jamai visités,
j'ai trouvé bcp de nouveaux choses
je connais mieux mes amis et mes deux chères profs (Mme. Amal et Mme. Yusi)
Elles nous ont encouragé  à faire mieux dans nos études afin que nos rêves soient bien réalisés
J'ai mangé de bon repas,
On a fait le Karaoke jusqu'à presque minuit (C'est hyperbole)
Ben, ça suffit de parler n'importer quoi,
maintenant je vais parler de mes voyages
des lieux qu'on avait visités

Avant de raconter ça, je vous dit que je suis restée à l'hôtel Favor qui se trouve à Jl. Lasinrang no 15, Makassar City Center, Makassar, Indonesia.  :

 C'est le réceptioniste qui nous a acceuili quand nous sommes arrivés. C'était une bonne place pour passer la nuit malgré ma chambre qui était très petite. C'était  confortable et les repas (les petit-déjs étaient délicieux).

Et je vais continuer mes histoires la suite XB

Soyez patients! :)

EDCO 2013

Good night, everybody. How was your day???
I hope you had a wonderful day like I had today.
Honestly, i can't call it wonderful because in fact not really.

Why??
If you wonder about that, let me tell you my stories today.

Today was my first time to come and became a participant in debate competition.
Can you imagine it? DEBATE!!
i never did it before and i don't know if i want to do it again.
It may be sound simple or usual for you, but for me, following this competition is not something usual.
I don't really like anything that has to do  with debate. It seems a lil' bit scary for me.
First, I don't really like to talk.
I'm not an honest man. I'm not always say what i think straightly. One of my lecture said that it's the habit of Indonesian people. They take everything for granted ant that's why Indonesian people don't get their right. They don't have brave to fight for it. As Indonesian people, for some reasons i have to say that i agree. Well, it happens to me.

Words can hurt. 
That's why I try to use the good words, try to be patient (although i want to scream my dislike sometimes), but yes i don't have enough brave to do that.

Back to debate things,
I was in group with Wuri and Menia.
We did the three debates in pre-eliminary round.
Both of Wuri and Menia did their job very well while i just astonished by the condition of the debate (btw, it was my first debate and i don't exactly know how to do the debate)
We were against the team of IKK, TP 1 and JIAI 1.
To be honest, we thought that our journey would end after the 3rd debate, BUT, surprisingly we become 1 one 8 teams that went through to the quarter  final ( seriously, that time i didn't know what i should feel, happy or sad.)
And when my team competed in the debate against the 1st rank on the list. BLAM!! That was such a dead penalty for me (especially) because i didn't know what my team mate thought.
And as we had been predicted, we lost. We didn't go through to the next round, but we were happy. ( I think i'm the happiest one because i don't want to compete again tomorrow, and my head was filled by the desire to go to IIC). I'[m so sorry guys, i didn't do as good as you both did :(
And I also wanna say my big apology to the boy from JIAI 1, I'm so sorry for what i've done and wherever you are, I hope you can forgive me.

Ok, after doing this debate, i realized that i'm so lack of critical thinking. I couldn't do my job well because i wasn't really well-prepared and then i didn't really think that debate could be so 'hot'. I took many lessons from today and i think i have to fix my lots of mistakes. I need to evaluate myself about that things. I have to realize that I need to grow up, to learn to think critically and generally (means that i have to think about something from many point of views). And thanks a lot to my team mates, my rivals, the adjudicators and my LO that had helped me.

Good luck to all semifinalist that will be competing tomorrow. :D

Be grateful

seriously, i really need to say thanks to you GOD. A miracle does happen and i know that's all bcause of You. I must say sorry for complaining all the time. God, i hope i'll grow up, be mature, be better. Im sorry and im really thank you for every bless u give to me :D

Desperation

somebody had better killing me than letting me in this situation im desperatly panic, hopeless, think to die, and other sucks feelings. o god, i cant help this feeling. i even hate myself for being like this, but........ i dont know, i think i need to blame somebody but who's right to be blamed anyway? there's nobody to be blamed and i start to blame myself. i really want to jump on from the high place or whatever. my mind is fulled by desperation. oh god, i really cant help myself.

Mengapa /?\

Dan akhirnya, yang ku lakukan hanya menghindar. Mencoba membuat dinding pembatas antara diriku dengan orang-orang.
Aku semakin tersudut dalam kesendirian, kehilangan cahaya harapan. Aku semakin takut berada di tengah-tengah kerumunan, takut rasa iri mengalahkan akal sehatku.
Aku semakin takut untuk melihat diriku sendiri, takut jika apa yg kulihat tak sesuai dengan apa yg ku harap.
Lalu, bisa apa aku sekarang?
Aku yg membuat benteng itu. Aku yg menjauhkan diriku. Mengapa aku merasa terluka? Mengapa aku merasa kosong? Mengapa aku merasa hampa?

Who am I?

"if you lose ur hope, you'll die"
A lot of people say that.
And now, i'm asking to myself, i'm wondering 'Do I have hope?' I don't know. I have a lot of dreams, wishes, desires. But, i might not be dare to hope it to be real.
I look to myself.
I look around.
I might be just a little baby girl. I am not strong enough to face this world.
I might be just a foolish-stubborn. I need help but i dont want to ask for it. I dont want to accept someone's help. I might be too arrogant to be a poor one. I don't know. I don't even know if you ask me 'who are you?' so, who am i? I really want to do something, but i do nothing. I have intention, but there's no action to do. What a _____! I can get off 'what if' 'why' from my mind. I almost being crazy. I think about suicide. But it won't help right? But what I can do??
I might be not as strong as I want.

Happy New Year

Tonight is a New Year Day. A new beginning, a new page. Im glad that im still given a chance to feel this time. I hope everything's gonna be better. For me, my family, everyone around me and everybody.
In the end, i'll Happy New Year. Bonne année. Feliz Ano Nuovo. Feliz Anno Nuevo. Akimashite Omedetou.

what I should do?

i don't know what my life would be...
I want to face it positively, but as i looked to my condition, it's so hard to do
but i dont want to let myself go down
but im really worried about what's gonna happen
i cant hope to be helped,
cause iam not sure i cant reply their kindness
how to help my life by myself?
I have no idea about what i should do
i just can hope,
but hoping without doing is useless
So, what?
What I should do?

Feeling?! IDK

You don't know
You will never know about what i feel inside
What kind of hurt i feel
You don't know
what i feel right know
How much tears had fallen down
You don't know
What happened to me
How hard
I can bear it anymore
not long
I dont know
How to keep myself in line
When my brain was going to explode
When i couldn't control my heart again
When i thought like world is against me
When i thought there's no fairness in this world
There's nothing i have
I don't know how to solve all of my problems
Where's the way out?

what??

if tears can be erased
why i can't stop crying,
if everything is right
why i never felt happy
if there's someone who cares
why i always feel lonely
if a family should have been the place to share, to protect
why i never felt it
i never thought that i have a 'real' family
yeah, not only family
i always feel that everything is fake for me
nothing real
im alone
and i will always feel it

if there's savior,
i know YOU will send that for me
no matter what
i know that YOU never leave me although else does

if the tears can be erased
im sure
it can
someday

GALAU

i decide to giving up about you 'cause i don't get anything about your feeling
im wondering,
asking,
cant you see that?
Everytime we get closer, i give you a sign, clue about what i feel
but i dont see anything in yourself
everything become blur not clearer
im confused about it
so, i think it's better to try to forget you eventhough im still consider it
hope the best for us, just it i can say

about his dream

i know about your dream tomorrow
w.o.w i've just known about your dream, to be a doctor. But it doesnt matter, ill pray in order to you can make your dream become true.
It's like im step forward,
im really happy to know about that
and im support you
i hope you can reach your dream and so am i.
Let's fight together (♥ε♥)