Cerita Kereta 

Aku menaiki Argo Dwipangga

Dan aku jatuh cinta padanya 

Aku dapat menyapa sang mentari dari dalam kereta 

Dan merasa takjub melihat keindahannya 

Dari Senja Utama serta Fajar Utama,

Aku tak pernah merasa bosan dibuatnya 

Perjalanan yang kulalui selalu menyenangkan 

Dan sungguh penuh kesan 

Parahyangan membawaku berpetualang

Bertemu banyak hal yang sebelumnya bahkan tidak aku bayangkan

Sama seperti Lodaya yang melaju begitu cepatnya

Membawaku ke destinasi selanjutnya

Kisah pukul 4 pagi yang tidak akan ku lupa 

Berdiam di stasiun untuk bertemu dengannya 

Argo Sindoro bukanlah favoritku

Aku selalu menanti untuk bertemu

Tapi apa yang kuharap ternyata berbeda dengan realita yang kujumpai

Aku tak merasa hal yang sama lagi

Satu yang membuatku kagum akan keelokannya, Bromo Anggrek

Hiburannya sungguh menarik

Membawaku pergi jauh hingga Pasar Turi

Membuatku tidak ingin kembali

Jika boleh aku mengatakan ini,

Bisakah aku menemuimu lagi ? 

Ini bukan kata rayuan untuk memintamu kembali

Aku tahu itu tak mungkin terjadi

Yang t'lah pergi,

Aku tidak berharap akan kembali

Tapi,

Apa bisa kau memberiku kesempatan

'Tuk Mengungkapkan apa yang belum sempat tersampaikan

Ada maaf yang belum ku ucapkan

Serta semoga berbahagia yang ku harap bisa kau dapatkan

Forgive yourself and Move on

Forgive yourself

For things that you didn’t do,

But you wish you could

 

Forgive yourself

For leaving people that you love

Because you don’t trust yourself that you can love them

The way they loved you

 

Forgive yourself

For your past mistakes

That you wish you you could go back

And fixed it

But you can’t

 

Forgive yourself

For not spending time

With people that you love

Because at that time,

You felt like you didn’t want to do it

 

Forgive yourself

For not being kind

To other people

And especially to yourself

When you have to

 

Forgive yourself

And move on. 

Good Soul

After many thoughtful thought,

Many videos that I watched,

I come to a realization that how people behave is based on how they were raised

We all have different backgrounds,

Different ways how we are treated by our family when we were a child

And most of the time, we’re influenced by this

People always have something deep inside their mind and heart because of their upbringing.

It could be the rooted belief of family thing,

The desire to have this family thing because they see happiness at their home

Or the scary thought of having one because they experienced the bad side of broken family.

Everyone has different story that we might not know.

They hide their feelings very well.

They try to look good in front of other, even though they feel really broken and desperate inside

It’s not easy to read someone’s history.

Dear myself,

I know you did many wrongs to other people in the past,

But you still have chances to correct your behaviour,

If you are given any chances to do good and be kind,

Please try to do that.

I know,

It’s not easy for you to open up to people

To trust them

But at least,

Give it a try please,

To do good and to be good.

It could be a good thing for your soul.

Quote from Sophia Bush (taken from Google)

Please try to believe,

As you have experienced it,

There are still many good souls here in this world,

So please,

Try to be part of that.

I know you can. 

Membangun mimpi

Terkadang,
aku merasa cakrawala dunia terlalu luas untukku
aku ingin berkelana,
tapi ada banyak kendala yang harus dihadapi
aku dihadapkan pada banyak dilema

Aku ingin melihat dunia,
tapi dunia ini begitu luas ternyata
ada banyak hal yang masih belum bisa ku terima
banyak hal yang membuatku bertanya
tapi belum ada jawabnya

Sempat mimpi melihat dunia terasa pudar
dia lenyap dalam perjalanan setiap hari di kereta
ia lenyap karena tuntutan dunia
tuntutan orang tua
tuntutan yang disebut keluarga
untuk hanya sekadar melanjutkan hidup saja

Tapi dunia yang begitu luasnya,
akan sayang jika aku hanya diam di satu tempat saja

Dunia ini memiliki banyak cerita
Ada banyak pula rahasia di dalamnya
Dan aku ingin menggalinya
Mencari tahu kebenarannya
Mencari tahu sejarah mereka

Mimpi itu terkadang pudar,
Tapi suatu waktu ia kembali

Suatu ketika aku bersedih sebab tampaknya,
Mimpi yang ku punya
Tak bisa ku mewujudkannya

Akan tetapi,
ada hari di mana dunia seakan tidak melawanku
Semesta seakan mendukungku
'tuk mewujudkan mimpi yang seakan sudah punah
Dia seakan kembali bangkit
dan berharap bisa diwujudkan
Impian itu kembali bangun
Saat ku rasa sudah mustahil 'tuk membangunnya

Apakah yang harus ku lakukan?
Ku coba mencari jalan untuk meraihnya,
Tapi aku bimbang

Zona nyaman tidak membuatku bahagia
Tapi aku bisa hidup karenanya
Membangun mimpi mungkin akan penuh derita
Berjuang dengan penuh air mata
Tapi pada akhirnya,
Mungkin akan membuatku bahagia

Apa yang harus ku pilih?

The Beauty of Life

Some days,

It feels good to do nothing

The other days,

It feels so boring and you wanna do something

Some time,

You want to be alone

And enjoy it

But the other times,

It feels better to have a company with you

One day,

You find a possible-to-be a lover

But you missed the opportunity

You lost that person out of worry or curiosity

You know that sometimes it’s not easy to love

But some days,

It’s really hard to let go

That’s the paradox of life

Those are things that make life becomes so funny

Life is like a box of chocolate* they say

You may see some sweetness outside,

But you might not be able to guess what’s inside it

Sometimes,

It’s really full of surprises

And you have no clue about what’s about to happen

That’s the beauty of life I guess.

Note : * quoted from Forest Gum movie

What would you say to your 20-year-old self?

Dear my 20-year old self, please BE HAPPY, BE COURAGEOUS, BE BRAVE to try and to take risks. You will only regret the things that you didn’t do. If you do things and you fail, it’s a lesson.

DON’T TAKE LIFE SO SERIOUSLY. You won’t get out alive. Enjoy the time that you have. Meet people and have another point of views about life. See the life from other view.

BE CURIOUS to always eager to learn. There are so much things that you don’t know in this life. LISTEN to others, but you can always have your own opinion. Sometimes you can agree to disagree. The most important thing is to always be the open-minded person. DON’T LIMIT YOURSELF/YOUR BELIEF. See through the other eyes.

ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL for everything, Good or bad, it happens for a reason. You might not find it straight away, but may be later. Even if you don’t figure out the reason, it’s okay.

BE RESPONSIBLE for your thoughts, words, and action. THINK before you doing something, especially if it’s included other person in it. Because people is the most complex creature on earth. They have their own mind and that’s why it’s important to be careful when you deal with them.

You DON’T NEED TO CARE ABOUT EVERYTHING. Focus on the things that you can control. ALWAYS TRY TO HAVE POSITIVE THOUGHTS.

BE KIND to yourself first and to others next. REMEMBER you are your longest commitment and responsibility. Always try to put yourself first. It might means that you’re being selfish. But you won’t be able to do good to others, if you don’t/can’t treat yourself well in the first place. REMEMBER THIS.

GO OUT and TRY TO FIND YOUR PURPOSE, the meaning of your life. Why do you live? Try to seek for the answer of that question.

Jay Shetty said "Passion is what keep you alive, but purpose is what can you give to others." 

L..I.F.E.

Today I watched a video that said that you can’t worry about these 5 things in life :

1. Your past

2. Judgement of others

3. Limited beliefs

4. Relationship

5. Money

Those things are the things that you can’t control, so it shouldn’t make you worried.

If you worry about your past, you can’t live your present and may ruin your future.

Thus, if you care too much about other’s opinion, you can’t live your life because you’d be too busy thinking about others and it’s not good. Everybody has their right to live their life (but make sure that you’d be responsible of your choices). Happiness is belong to you, NOT others.

And then always have the open-minded mindset that you CAN do anything. If you have that belief, then you REALLY can do anything. That’s why it’s important to have the unlimited belief. Everyone has their potential. You just need to figure out in what field you want to be good at. Everything starts within you, always remember this and be sure in yourself.

Next thing that you don’t need to worry about is relationship. Right things and person will come at the right moment and time. You’d better be prepare for that by doing your best. Have a heart and mind that open to everything and attach to nothing. Take someone’s belief or opinion in your consideration, but always have your own point of view. Always have faith in you that everything comes at the right place and time. If it’s meant to be yours, thn it will come to you.

And last, money shouldn’t be a thing that makes you worry. Money is essential, but it’s not everything. DO NOT CHASE MONEY in life. If you do something wholeheartedly and you really do your best, then money will come. Especially if you also help others in the process. Money should be something complementary, not the most important so that you forget about kindness or yourself when you look for it.

That was a good video, but I don’t really know if the sweet words are true because as you know, in real life, we can’t truly not care abut those stuffs eventho I really wish that I could. I want to enjoy my life. I’d love to do things that I love, but people will keep judging and commenting behind my back. My past will always haunt me and it’s so terrible to have an empty pocket life.

Someone said that the three best teachers in life are : FAILURE, EMPTY POCKET and EMPTY STOMACH.

And I couldn’t agree more about that. Life is a roller-coaster thing. There will be the ups and downs time in life. You need to be strong and sure that you can go through everything. That everything happens for a reason and you’re here, in this world, for a purpose. A good one.

A perfect life doesn’t exist and you don’t need that. But try to create a good life instead, because doing and becoming good is better than being right. Life is full of challenge that might surprise you, but you have to remember that you only have one chance to BE you, so always try to do good.

No matter how hard your life is.

Everyone is fighting an invisible battle (inside or outside) them and you’ll NEVER exactly know about what they feel inside, because you WILL NEVER be in their shoe. It’s not something you can’t judge. That’s why try not to judge others. You’ll never know how they feel inside.

Life is only yours and it’s not your duty to comment or say anything about someone else’s life. Live your own life and do good. That’s enough to have a good life. Let the Creator of the world of the Universe decide your path, but always try to spread and have positive mindset in your life. Don’t let other people thing bring you down. Always have faith in you. You are your own enemy to have a great life.

Note : Images are taken from Google

Jodoh Pasti Bertemu

Bicara cinta,

Bicara tentang dia

Bicara cinta,

Bicara tentang rasa

Bicara rindu,

Bicara tentang kamu

Bicara rindu,

Bicara tentang tanya dalam ragu

Menunggu

Apakah rindu itu akan terbalaskan

Atau kah hanya akan menjadi sesuatu yang terlupakan

Menjadi rasa yang membisu

Atau membeku

Bicara tentangnya,

Apakah ia yang di sana?

Ataukah yang di sini?

Ia yang terucap di dalam doa

Atau ia yang datang menghampiri

Bicara kamu,

Apakah sama yang kita rasakan?

Atau hanya sekadar ‘tuk mengusir rasa sepi di hati

Kamu kah yang ku cari?

Aku kah yang kau tunggu?

Akan kah ada ‘kita’ di akhir perjalanan?

Move On

Taken from Google

A year has passed and a lot of things happened

Everything changes

Everybody changes.

Nothing is as same as it before

And there comes a point where I can’t handle the things anymore

I feel overloaded

I feel exhausted

Togetherness is no longer in our blood

Our culture

And I feel like I’ve had enough

I still wanna give it a try

Give it a chance

But if only one person tries to do it,

It would be quite hard

You’d rather be pissed of by the other person or you’ll be force to follow the stream

When you feel like it’s no longer worth it

And the changes that you hoped for just not happen,

You have no other choice but to make your own decision

To move forward

Demi cinta (?)

Sebab aku bukan pujangga

Dan kau bukan penebar kata cinta

Kita sama – sama terperangkap dalam cinta bisu

Yang tanpa diungkap kata

Tapi bisa dirasa

Harus kah kata cinta dikatakan

Saat hati telah merasa saling memiliki

Haruskah rasa sayang itu dilontarkan

Ketika kita telah merasa sejiwa dan sehati?

Cinta adalah perkara rumit

Kau mau A,

Aku suka B

Aku mau mengalah

Tapi kau pun siap untuk menyerah

Dua makhluk egois yang bersedia ‘tuk saling kompromi

Demi bisa menyenangkan satu sama lain

Dua pikian dan raga berbeda

Yang mencoba untuk menyatukan dan mengabaikan segala perbedaan

Apakah bisa kau menyebutnya demi cinta?