Still Wondering

tonight (or in this morning), i still wondering about who i am, what i want, what i should do, what the best
i dont know have i found out it? I cant guess.
Im wondering about my life. It's so hard to always pretend like you're fine, but not. It's hard to decay yourself. It's hard to me, but i cant not do it too.
What to do, i still searching and i believe that the best way has been waiting for me.
God, help me to find it, please. Thanks