Lo Que Soy (This is Me)

You know,

I don't want to live in fear

But I can't

Fear is always exists in myself, my mind, my heart.

My life.

Sometimes,

Everything is really freaked me out.

Every single little things.

I see something to worry about everywhere.

Even it doesn't exist at all.

I just,

I don't know.........

Unstable, maybe.

I can't tell what makes me really scared.

It just comes.

Suddenly.

Without warning.

And sometimes,

Happiness makes me scared too.

I do believe in happiness, good things will come to those who wait.

But, you know.

For me, happiness is not a simple things.

Yin and yang.

Good and bad.

Heaven and hell.

Happiness and sadness.

You know,

Everything has its own 'friend'

And I'm afraid of 'that good things'

Sometimes,

When i feel too high,

i can't control myself.

I lost myself.

My evil side take me over.

And I can't help that.

You know,

I'm not as good as everyone thinks

And maybe,

I'm not as bad as they know.

I don't know, i can't judge myself.

But one thing,

One small little thing can change me, sometimes.